Ready for X-mas!

I don't know if I've written already.... should read my old posts. Well, I've gotten all my X-mas presents already. I only had to buy one yesterday for my friend. Otherwise I was done alerady on saturday. A really good feeling about how everyone is just going to love our presents. OK so we spent some money on them this year. Next year everyone is getting socks again. ;) But since I'm earning money now it only feels nice to spread it around a bit on X-mas.
My favorite gym instructor was back yesterday doing the class she used to do. Just this one week though. And I was thinking of not going. Luckily I went cause it was nice. I have begun to wonder though about going to that Healthy Back-class. I seem to always be the fittest looking one in the class. and It doesn't help much that I am always in the front row. See the thing is I want to be able to see in the mirror that I am doing all the movements right. And were I at the back that wouldn't be possible. And I do have back problems, but that just doesn't show anymore now that my posture is a bit better. With hard work that is. So the thing is, I have started to feel like the people around me feel like I am just showing off at the class. This lady in the sauna was like asking these other women whether the class is meant for those who have a healthy back or for those who don't. Me being there might have something to do with this. I know I am now again thinking like the world revolves around me, but this is how I feel.
Even at the gym regularly I am quite fit looking compared to other people. I always thought that only fit people go to the gym, but it seems like the only really fit people there are the instructors. Weird really.
So should I stop going to the class? This lady yesterday was looking at me mean. I think she might have wanted my spot. And she was just the type that really needs that class. U know, not really in touch with her body. Maybe I should just go to the pumps and aerobics cause I would better blend into the people there.
I'll have plenty of time to think about this over X-mas. Really excited. Only like three ans a half work days, one dentists appointment and a long bus trip and X-mas is here. :)